Social Media Detox Is Real

“My name is N and I am a social media addict”

"The Matrix"

By Artist "S" 2022

I felt powerless and trapped in the World wide WEB of FB.

I filled gaps of free time and boredom by scrolling through the lives of people I have not seen in years, and getting sidetracked by the lives of people I didn't even know!

I caught myself comparing and contrasting these photos and images to my life, sometimes this would make me feel inferior and other times superior.

Thrusted full throttle into judgment and division, while not fully aware of it, as I scrolled in a zombie like state, slightly hypnotized and lost in the interNET.

I would get wrangled into the most current political “event” scrolling through various comments, thoughts and opinions of others. Set alongside the rest of the puppets who were also falling for the emotionally and energetically draining bait that aroused feelings of anger and injustice.

My heart would pump with anxiety and frustration, my face turning red and my lip and jaw tightening and tense in fight response. Without much thought, I found myself frantically drafting presumptuous and holier than thou comments to be delivered as verbal bullets that only create more hate.

Then the good little angel sitting on my shoulder would chime in and remind me of my reason and whitt, I would erase my comment.

Only to read another triggering comment and fall right back into the trap over and over leaving me susceptible and vulnerable to additional stress, compiled onto the everyday stress I was already carrying!

This scrolling, through pictures, subjects, peoples woes, or finding out an old friend had passed away, scrambled my brain and thoughts with mind chatter that left me feeling confused, overwhelmed and drained.

Not to mention the synergistic advertisements that coincidentally coincided with my brain, like eerie and invasive deja vu, knowing there was a dark spy out there collecting my personal algorithms in here and tracking my every action and movement while “in” their web.

"Lost In Space"

By Artist "N" 2022

I don’t fend well when anything, person or entity attempts to take control of my mind!

This World Wide Web was sucking life force energy out of me, and I knew it.

I had to create a boundary, for peace of mind and my life, for the sanctity of privacy, which is sacred to me.

I took the leap and shut the meta monster down, so I could get back in my body where I belong.

I had been on FB since 2011 so there are a lot of memories, and photos I had accumulated over the years I was going to have to download or let go of. Planning my escape wasn’t easy!

There were a lot of friends I liked to check up on, though we never talked in the “real world” I had to let go of.

There were groups I started, I also had to let go of.

So I took a deep breath and I hit the delete button, and all went silent, blank and black…

My connection to this cloud of illusion and fantasy world was gone in an instant.

At first I felt isolated, as if I was no longer part of our society, and a part of me was gone.

Yet I also felt liberated and spacious, left wondering what I would do to fill my time?

I had ample time to focus on myself, my thoughts and feelings, conjuring a slight panic from within. I was not sure that I was ready to deal with my own thoughts with such clarity, without any interrupters standing in the way of me, myself and I.

Although FB was a cushy place to escape as a voyeur looking into others lives, forgetting about your own, stealing your time. But isn’t the purpose of life, to live your own, in the moment, in your body, and on your own time?

I began to get ancy, similar to how you feel when you have an addiction you're trying to kick, the proverbial monkey on your back.

I would open my email to find another message from FB dangling our unhealthy relationship in front of me saying “I am still here” reminding me that it wasn’t too late to run back to my old familiar, I still had 15 days left before it was gone forever!

I had made a decision to let it go, and if I were to be strong enough to stick to it, I had to employ some serious mind over matter techniques.

I was going to start from right here, right now, escaping the shackles of social media, and move forward.

I had to find other things to fill in the gaps, so I made this website. Then I learned how to record a podcast, something I had been talking about doing for years, but did not think I had the technological ability to do, to my own surprise I figured it out!

In just 2 days without FB, look at the productivity rising in me! The possibilities were endless. This built confidence within me, which I had been lacking.

I was creating again, no longer wasting my precious time and life on social media nonsense.

I wanted to spend more time working with my hands and painting, just being, writing and talking to my children.

Now, I find myself sitting outside with the gentle wind upon me, as I gaze at the sparkly new moon perched in the sky. I notice an incredibly talented and creative orb weaver crafting his magnificent web just shy of sundown. His systematic zig zag dancing mesmerizes me into a meditative state, feeling comfortable within the simplicity of the moment.

In this moment of peace, my nervous system is thankful, and so is my family, because I am here!

So c'est la vie social media trap. I am detoxing my mind and my thoughts of you, so I have enough clarity to recognize my own thoughts. I no longer consent to being programmed by you. I am sovereign to myself, and my mind, and I am taking my power back!

I hope everyone takes this leap back into the real world, where a lot of humans need you, where you can find meaning in what matters, and spend your precious time connecting to your heart and those you love. Having real conversations, that are whole and filled with smiles, laughter, tears, understanding, connection, emotion, love and hugs.